Since I got pregnant, maybe even since I got pregnant the first time this round, in August, I’ve been feeling skinless. Everything touches me, the tiniest things make me cry. I react before I can sense what has happened, I get angry, happy, sad and everything at the same time without even knowing why.
I keep telling myself that it’s the hormones working my mind, but i don’t know. In any case I hope everything inside me settles down after giving birth. Or at least a few months after.
In my meditation lately I’m focusing on observing in stead of reacting. To watch what is happening without letting the emotions flood me.
Still I can’t see any effect of it. I react as quickly and unpredictably as before, but I hope that with time my mind will remember my practice and let me simply observe.