I’m on a rollercoaster.
A month a ago I decided to be content with our two wonderful children. After two miscarriages I needed to shift my focus. This weekend me and my husband decided we really wanted our family to include one more of these amazing little creatures that drive us mad and fill our hearts. We made a plan to start trying to get pregnant in a couple of months. That would give me time to get my head straight.
Yesterday I found out I’m pregnant. 4 weeks today.
I am happy. It’s good to skip the entire waiting-trying-waiting-testing-disappointment-trying again. This is what we wanted.
Still.. I am terrified. What if it doesn’t work? What if I’ll have another miscarriage. I did have a couple of glasses of wine this weekend, what if it damaged the baby? I still doesn’t feel any pregnancy signs, is that bad?
My mind is rollercoasting from happy to terrified, terrified to happy.
What to do next?