Rollercoaster

I’m on a rollercoaster. 

A month a ago I decided to be content with our two wonderful children. After two miscarriages I  needed to shift my focus. This weekend me and my husband decided we really wanted our family to include one more of these amazing little creatures that drive us mad and fill our hearts. We made a plan to start trying to get pregnant in a couple of months. That would give me time to get my head straight.

Yesterday I found out I’m pregnant. 4 weeks today. 

I am happy. It’s good to skip the entire waiting-trying-waiting-testing-disappointment-trying again. This is what we wanted. 

Still.. I am terrified. What if it doesn’t work? What if I’ll have another miscarriage. I did have a couple of glasses of wine this weekend, what if it damaged the baby? I still doesn’t feel any pregnancy signs, is that bad? 

My mind is rollercoasting from happy to terrified, terrified to happy. 

What to do next?
– Sofie

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6 thoughts on “Rollercoaster”

  1. Oh gosh!!! Congratulations!!!!! ^_^
    The same thing (minus the decision to start trying again – we already were) happened to me with my fourth baby! I had become content and then got pregnant. πŸ™‚
    ((hugs)) I know how difficult and scary pregnancy can be after miscarriages. 😦 Take it a day at a time. Easier said than done, I know.
    I’m praying for you and that sweet little one! XO

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    1. Thanks! It’s rather tough right now… I’m usually quite a planner, enjoying preparing and making lists, but now I’m more in a see and wait modus. Wish there was something I could do to make sure everything goes well, but I guess I just have to wait. Thanks for your support β€πŸ˜™

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  2. I think it’s fate! You’ve been contemplating it so much and what’s meant to be will fall into place! I’m very happy for you and I’ll say a little prayer for a healthy pregnancy. Try to relax and not drive yourself mad worrying about a miscarriage. Thinking of you and sending strength your way!! ❀️

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  3. Congratulations! I know there is nothing I can say to make you not worry too much but I truly hope everything goes well with your pregnancy. Just take it day by day. Sending you lots of love! 😘

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