I haven’t done my meditation since before the weekend. It somehow feels like I’ve lost it. I know all I have to do is get back on the mat. I need it now.
We’ve again decided to try to get pregnant and I can sense the mud start clinging on me again.
I need to clear my head. To find my calm in meditation.
Guess some of it is fear. A lot of it is fear. It is difficult to be myself. To react the way I want. To be on my good side. To get things done.
I’m sliding back into my dark corner. I need to get back out. now.