Meditation lost

I haven’t done my meditation since before the weekend. It somehow feels like I’ve lost it. I know all I have to do is get back on the mat. I need it now. 

We’ve again decided to try to get pregnant and I can sense the mud start clinging on me again. 

I need to clear my head. To find my calm in meditation. 

Guess some of it is fear. A lot of it is fear. It is difficult to be myself. To react the way I want. To be on my good side. To get things done. 

I’m sliding back into my dark corner. I need to get back out. now.

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